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185 pages, Hardcover
First published September 9, 2014
Sitting in my classroom, I wait for Mrs. Reynolds to start talking like my mother. In Spanish. Surely it won’t be long now. An hour passes. Two hours. An entire day it feels, and still it is all Mighty Mouse… It’s like being forced to watch the same cartoon all day long.
I am not to go the way of the two people I long for in the thick terror of the night. The first man I love and the first woman I adore, my father and my mother with their Spanish words, are not in these cards. The road before me is English and the next part is too awful to ask aloud or even silently: What is so wrong with my parents that I am not to mimic their hands, their needs, not even their words?
There isn’t a good verb for what begins happening to me in college. Yes, I am meeting lesbians, but I am not one of them. I still find men attractive; it is that I am thinking of women in a new way. It is as if I am learning that I can shift my weight from one leg to the other, that I have a second leg. Kissing women is like discovering a new limb.
And it is hard, I imagine, for people who have not experienced this to understand the weight of that silence and how the absence of language can feel like a death.There's just something about reading a memoir that reaffirms who you are and where you come from.. Like yes, we are from different places and have different upbringings but there are so many similarities.