We call our philosophy and program Involution. Involution was another Smit and Uncle Will–ism. Uncle Will defined it as: “To change the outside world you have to go within and change yourself first.” The way he saw it, our real gurus were inside of us. The real learning is in going deeper and deeper into yourself and, if you’re very lucky, breaking through to experience the expansive, unending, infinite self within each of us. This is a profound concept for someone who’s lived within the spiritual community or explored different practices over the years. Now imagine being eight or nine years old, from the worst part of Baltimore, and your life is on the edge of falling apart. It’s not surprising we get some blank looks on the first day of class.
And it’s not just the oppressed who are traumatized. Everyone out there resisting change, retreating in fear to some old vision of “how things used to be,” well, they’re traumatized too. It’s a different kind of trauma, because it’s the trauma that comes from knowing you benefited from the evil actions of your ancestors. It’s the trauma that comes from holding on tightly to the past, because you can’t face the accountability of the present. It’s the trauma of finding any way—no matter how convoluted—to justify unjustifiable belief systems. They’re the people waving guns at peaceful protestors or pouring water on a child’s chalk drawings celebrating the Black Lives Matter movement, all the while spreading rumors and innuendo about people doing the actual hard work of social justice.
To start the year off with this book is stunning, either none will compare or the year will be a bonanza of great books. I loved everything about this book; it is a compelling story, it is lyrically written, it is real and genuine, and it teaches us so we can bring it forward in any little way there is possible. There is so much to be cynical about in the world these teachers/mentors inhabit in Baltimore, but they transform as much as they can and help and save lives. I am blown away and I hope it can be replicated, I have a lot of traumatized teens and young adults in my practice, and I am going to find a way to share a lot of what they teach. Just amazing.
Research has shown that most people in Baltimore have three or more ACEs. Eventually these repeated ACEs affect the brain, shrinking the hippocampus (where we process our emotions, consolidate short-term memories into long-term memories, and manage stress). As a result, the brain doesn’t develop fully, and the child, already running on fumes from the daily stress of his or her life, is now struggling with self-regulation, fear processing, decision-making, and stress management.
Uncle Will always told us that you have to “wipe the dust off, and let your inner light shine out.” On an individual level this is easy to understand: If you’ve ever had a deep meditation, you’ve experienced that sensation of clarity, calm, acceptance. But it has bigger implications too: We interpret this as a light that has the potential to sweep across the world, like a lighthouse illuminating a rough sea. This light is less about us swooping in and doing the work than it is about highlighting the talent and energy and potential already in these local communities. We share our knowledge, and support—but once these groups are up and running, they need us less and less.
Uncle Will was a peaceful person, and a joyful person. He was a powerful person. He believed that life is a tsunami of love and that it was all our jobs to spread it to as many people as possible. He was a man who loved life in all its elevated and otherwise ways. Hell, he even used to tell us that he loved George W. and, later, Trump. When we asked why the hell he was wasting his love on them he told us, “They need it more than most.”
Not only was yoga a way to heal your body and your mind outside of the mainstream medical tradition (a tradition that then as now wasn’t super worried about the health and well-being of Black bodies to begin with), it was a path to spiritual liberation, and maybe, one day, social liberation too.
The three of us started to refine our program as we worked with Ra’Mon and the Tays. We knew that our program would have three foundations. One was love, and we had plenty of that. The kids in our neighborhood were starved for love and attention. They were the kids and grandkids of the generation of “hungry kids’’ that Cassie and Smit had tried to help. Their parents and grandparents had been under-loved and under-cared for. Now their kids were doubly feeling the pain. They needed to be seen, heard, and recognized. To this day, love is the foundation of everything we do, and it’s the core reason why anything we do works. The day the love slips is the day that our system will stop working.
The other essential elements would be things that we knew worked firsthand. By this time, we’d all been regular yoga and meditation practitioners for years. At the same time, we knew the kids we were working with were going to be confused at best or openly resistant at worst to these more esoteric concepts. And finally, the environment, both in terms of caring for it and experiencing it—first with small park cleanups and veggie gardens, and later with hiking and camping trips.